Dear Dreamers,
I hope you are all well! Today was my 23rd Birthday and it was absolutely terrifying! Everyone kept telling me that "it's all down hill from here" and sadly Taylor Swift did not entitle her song 23. And for at least 30 minutes I had myself convinced that my sad little life was totally over! I mean, a 23 year old is so old and irrelevant, right? I cried for precisely one minute because I thought that was the truth! Then I came to my senses!
If I actually consider it, my 23rd year of life is the start of a new chapter in my life. I can now look back and say, "I've finished my education, I no longer live for free, I pay taxes!!" So in many ways, my adult life has just begun! And even though it is hard to leave 22 and my childhood behind, I am ready and quite excited for this phase! So, I am going to try and come to terms with this revelation and quite freaking out! I think it may be time to use my nervous energy for something more productive.. like my career ( SHI..! ) So I still don't have a career.. but I'm working on it!
Now, onto something quite important. It is entirely possible to be "HAPPY, FREE, CONFUSED, and LONELY at the same time" while be being 23 or 24 or 25 or.. you get the point! The truth is that I am still all of these things! I am happy because I've come a long way and accomplished a LOT in 23 years of life. I'm happy to start the next phase of life! I am still allowed to be a free spirit! I am also free to flirt because I'm single! I'm free because I am not tied down to any specific person or thing. I am free to be myself! I am confused, so confused. I don't know where life will take me or what exactly I want to do! I am confused because I don't want to work in the field in which I have a degree to work in! I am confused because I bought into the lie that I am only qualified to do the job which is indicated on a piece of paper! ((AND SOOO HAPPY THAT THIS IS NOT ACTUALLY THE CASE)) I am confused because I am still trying to figure my life out! I am lonely because I don't have very many close friends. BUT, I am in the process of changing these small problems!
My advice to the 23 year olds out there is to start honing in on your decision making skills! We have a lot of life altering decisions to make at this phase, and it's important that we make each one with wisdom, grace, and happy hearts.
So to conclude, whether your 23 and in the same boat or any age, we are all going through these hard times and I hope I can be of some use to you! I spend a lot of time pepping myself up, so I figure I should try to pep you up too! If you've been here before, maybe you have some valuable advice to give! I would love to hear it if you do! I feel like if we all have to go through this, we may as well do it together and learn from each other! This day has inspired me to take a different approach to blogging. It's time to get a bit more real. Your twenties can be rough, terrifying and strange! I'm here to remind you(and myself) that it'll be okay! I'll talk to you soon! xo, Brooke
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